It’s currently 1.22am and I am “enjoying” my second sleepless night in the row. I had been lying I bed since 10pm but my head is hurting so badly that I can hardly get rest. I seemed to have belittled the effects flashbacks never thinking that they would bring such adverse effects on me. Leaving makes you think of all the good help that you received from people and can just get all so touching that you tears just flow like a running tap. I am supposed to wake up 5.30am today and would be really thankful to get 3 hours of good sleep which I totally doubt. My heart is aching so badly and I’m like suddenly so depressed. I know I sound like I had fell out of love or something but no, it’s not that, but leaving this people that I love so dearly is really hell for me.
Anyway no point telling myself not to think about it cause that only reiterates the point itself. So I suddenly remembered CALLER RING!!! Wahaha~ this totally made me burst out laughing! I was watching Kim Hyun Joong being interviewed in English on a program and when he was posed the question: “What do you think is you best quality?” He went like huh? Caller ring? I almost fell off the chair lar~ plus the reaction on his face… I can totally smile again! Okay~ going to try catching some sleep again~
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
“…It will be done just as you believed it would…” - Matthew 8:13
Why say I hope I asked myself. It’s an indication of the lack of faith. “He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.” - Matthew 8:26
Then why am I so afraid? It’s not that I don’t believe. It’s not about me it’s about Him! Okay! I’ll gladly wait for another week.
Why say I hope I asked myself. It’s an indication of the lack of faith. “He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.” - Matthew 8:26
Then why am I so afraid? It’s not that I don’t believe. It’s not about me it’s about Him! Okay! I’ll gladly wait for another week.
Thursday, May 07, 2009
Doing B2 shift again~
I cannot exactly complain about working from 5pm to 1.30am especially when God has been good to me. Although I am down with flu (not swine flu okay) and am very blur, things have been manageable and there is a lot of help around. They are now cutting cost on transportation and would mean that I would be scheduled late shifts a lot more than the rest as I can walk home. I won’t be complaining that this is unfair though it is not exactly my favourite shift. There may be some goodness in this that I don’t see now.
I caught between on-ing the air-con and then suffering 101% nose blockage and having the air-con off and suffer the heat and sweat. Not that I can breathe smoothly, but 70% is better than 101% I guess. Occasional breeze is helping but I don’t exactly like the fan so that’s out of the picture too. Pray for more wind! I guess I am just bored having close to 5 hours to “burn” before work starts.
Medication given by my doctor is not making my flu heal but instead it’s making very hungry all the time. I am seriously wondering if the doctor prescribed me some weight loss medication or some tablets to aid digestion by mistake. I’ve been like hungry for the pass few days having like 4 or 5 meals and all the sleep in the world. And as I blog, my stomach is growling already. I just had a heavy breakfast 1 hour ago. ZZZ… off to find more food.
I caught between on-ing the air-con and then suffering 101% nose blockage and having the air-con off and suffer the heat and sweat. Not that I can breathe smoothly, but 70% is better than 101% I guess. Occasional breeze is helping but I don’t exactly like the fan so that’s out of the picture too. Pray for more wind! I guess I am just bored having close to 5 hours to “burn” before work starts.
Medication given by my doctor is not making my flu heal but instead it’s making very hungry all the time. I am seriously wondering if the doctor prescribed me some weight loss medication or some tablets to aid digestion by mistake. I’ve been like hungry for the pass few days having like 4 or 5 meals and all the sleep in the world. And as I blog, my stomach is growling already. I just had a heavy breakfast 1 hour ago. ZZZ… off to find more food.
Monday, May 04, 2009
I am quite sure about me going to flood my blog today.
I chanced upon this verse Philippians 2:14-16 some time back. I knew God had something to tell me about it but then I grew busy and lost it. Then one fine day when I was doing TAWG, I was reading thru Philippians and “we” met. It wasn’t the most well know verse of Philippians but it was certainly the one that God used to speak to me in my life. Unknowingly, I have been leading life the wrong way, always complaining, forgetting the goodness God had promised. Sometimes even overlooking those good things that happened, taking them for granted.
Anyway, remember me not believing in New Year Resolutions? So here I am with my resolutions from no where! Hahaha… call them semi-2nd quarter resolutions if you insist.
I am giving up gluttony, sloth and wrath, all these deadly sins. I am sinful no doubt and that is why I need God. And to conquer each of them, instead of trying not to do them (more often leading to reminder of them), I would be replacing them with healthy and balanced diet, regular exercise (jogging for the moment, welcome people inviting me for badmintons games and teach me tennis) and pausing before reacting. Aiya! So excited already! (opps, I am still behaving like a little kid. But that’s the way I am mar…)
I chanced upon this verse Philippians 2:14-16 some time back. I knew God had something to tell me about it but then I grew busy and lost it. Then one fine day when I was doing TAWG, I was reading thru Philippians and “we” met. It wasn’t the most well know verse of Philippians but it was certainly the one that God used to speak to me in my life. Unknowingly, I have been leading life the wrong way, always complaining, forgetting the goodness God had promised. Sometimes even overlooking those good things that happened, taking them for granted.
Anyway, remember me not believing in New Year Resolutions? So here I am with my resolutions from no where! Hahaha… call them semi-2nd quarter resolutions if you insist.
I am giving up gluttony, sloth and wrath, all these deadly sins. I am sinful no doubt and that is why I need God. And to conquer each of them, instead of trying not to do them (more often leading to reminder of them), I would be replacing them with healthy and balanced diet, regular exercise (jogging for the moment, welcome people inviting me for badmintons games and teach me tennis) and pausing before reacting. Aiya! So excited already! (opps, I am still behaving like a little kid. But that’s the way I am mar…)
Refresh? Refreshed.
*Dusts away the cobwebs*
It just occurred to me that I haven’t been blogging for a prolonged period of time. *thinks to myself* was I even that busy? I guessed I turned to penning my thoughts down for some months as they are mostly about work and it pretty P & C. I don’t want any of my bosses to see what I have been thinking or going through. I’m glad that was over.
I am really thankful for the well-deserved break I had last month. It allowed me to be more relaxed and really speak to God in that undisturbed state. Anyway the break kind of refreshed me (I actually typed changed me at first but I guess it is not a change cos I was like this before). I asked myself what I wanted to do in life. I wanted to offer service. I had always believed that true service goes a long way. But as I progressed in my career, I somehow felt I lost it. I became focused on other things. I tried to over perform and neglected a lot of things that was important in service. The break was a good pause and gave me the opportunity to self-reflect. Not so much of whether service suited me but rather the question of was the passion that I once had is still within me or did I already turned away and pursued something else instead.
In times like this I guess it’s really hard to stay focus. So my daily prayer is that God please put me in a place to grow what you have instilled in me. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.
It just occurred to me that I haven’t been blogging for a prolonged period of time. *thinks to myself* was I even that busy? I guessed I turned to penning my thoughts down for some months as they are mostly about work and it pretty P & C. I don’t want any of my bosses to see what I have been thinking or going through. I’m glad that was over.
I am really thankful for the well-deserved break I had last month. It allowed me to be more relaxed and really speak to God in that undisturbed state. Anyway the break kind of refreshed me (I actually typed changed me at first but I guess it is not a change cos I was like this before). I asked myself what I wanted to do in life. I wanted to offer service. I had always believed that true service goes a long way. But as I progressed in my career, I somehow felt I lost it. I became focused on other things. I tried to over perform and neglected a lot of things that was important in service. The break was a good pause and gave me the opportunity to self-reflect. Not so much of whether service suited me but rather the question of was the passion that I once had is still within me or did I already turned away and pursued something else instead.
In times like this I guess it’s really hard to stay focus. So my daily prayer is that God please put me in a place to grow what you have instilled in me. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.
My House
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Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.
You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.
You are not a romantic person by nature. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.
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Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.
You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.
You are not a romantic person by nature. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
What happened?
I seriously have no idea why I am is such bad mood. What on earth has gotten over me? I just want to complete my assignment, it’s not too difficult but it’s just not happening. What happened that made me the way I am now? What what what? I am so stressed cos I am stressed over nothing or something unidentified. Argh.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Joy and more Joy!!
I’m starting to think that I am indeed the oddest person!
Anyway making sure my thoughts are heard, I kind of felt better. The assuring look he gave me, I hope I am trusting the right person. =)
I’m working at Alexandra already!! Yippy!! Haha~ I actually find more job satisfaction at my new location. I also don’t know why… I somehow find going to work at TPY is like some part time job and now that I actually travel to work, I’m finally working full time. It’s indeed tiring man but I like it. weird.
I was very encouraged by Pastor David’s message. About the joy that is from God. I think I’m kind of out of my depression. Thank you all for the prayers and concern. I’m excited again and the abundance in life is bursting!! Haha~
It’s been a really tiring week, reaching home later than normal and waking up so early each day to try the different ways to get to work. Hope the enthusiasm never dies.
Anyway making sure my thoughts are heard, I kind of felt better. The assuring look he gave me, I hope I am trusting the right person. =)
I’m working at Alexandra already!! Yippy!! Haha~ I actually find more job satisfaction at my new location. I also don’t know why… I somehow find going to work at TPY is like some part time job and now that I actually travel to work, I’m finally working full time. It’s indeed tiring man but I like it. weird.
I was very encouraged by Pastor David’s message. About the joy that is from God. I think I’m kind of out of my depression. Thank you all for the prayers and concern. I’m excited again and the abundance in life is bursting!! Haha~
It’s been a really tiring week, reaching home later than normal and waking up so early each day to try the different ways to get to work. Hope the enthusiasm never dies.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Work is draining me
It must have been not easy for me. Listening to gold 90.5, I managed to smile a little. Moody blues by Elvis Presley was just on radio. It was a sudden surge of overwhelming emotions, probably beyond what I can take.
This is supposedly one of the shorter weeks having Monday as a PH. Nevertheless, it is almost the longest and most tormenting week ever. After bottling all the unhappiness about work, alright, I’ll take that back. Perhaps what I can put to words is petty limited and what I’ve been complaining was just a tip of the iceberg.
I was having Ya Kun with Dad for tea just on Monday evening. He had indirectly given me the reason to move on. I haven’t mention a slight unhappiness of the job but somehow he kind of like guessed it. He had left me a casual statement: “Never shortchange your employer, if you are unhappy you might want to leave.” His bottom line is to give your best shot. I had probably taken it from another angle. He was saying that I should avoid talks or people who gossip about the management. There are bound to people like this in all corporations. But what if I was the person? Or cannot stop talking about it because it more that just agreeing to it but what I truly feel and have to voice it out. I am lost. I need to rethink.
Schedule is out today. Unhappiness. What can I say? Is there a reason for me to stay? Not happy. I wish I could talk to you after work. Tell you my thoughts and all.
This is supposedly one of the shorter weeks having Monday as a PH. Nevertheless, it is almost the longest and most tormenting week ever. After bottling all the unhappiness about work, alright, I’ll take that back. Perhaps what I can put to words is petty limited and what I’ve been complaining was just a tip of the iceberg.
I was having Ya Kun with Dad for tea just on Monday evening. He had indirectly given me the reason to move on. I haven’t mention a slight unhappiness of the job but somehow he kind of like guessed it. He had left me a casual statement: “Never shortchange your employer, if you are unhappy you might want to leave.” His bottom line is to give your best shot. I had probably taken it from another angle. He was saying that I should avoid talks or people who gossip about the management. There are bound to people like this in all corporations. But what if I was the person? Or cannot stop talking about it because it more that just agreeing to it but what I truly feel and have to voice it out. I am lost. I need to rethink.
Schedule is out today. Unhappiness. What can I say? Is there a reason for me to stay? Not happy. I wish I could talk to you after work. Tell you my thoughts and all.
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